For me, to Live is Christ and to die is gain

Peggy went home to be with the Lord this morning at 9:30 am. I had the honor to be by her side with Larry, Larry's sister Lauri, our Mom, our brother Jeff, our sister Sandy and Keith. The photo here is Mom holding her daughter's hand about an hour before she went home to be with Jesus.

As I mentioned I did not see Peggy yesterday. She needed a quieter day. The medical side said she needed the time to focus on healing. But in hind sight she needed a quieter day to talk to God. My sister Peggy is stubborn. Those around her said she would be talking to God. No one knew clearly what was being said, but it was between Peggy and the Lord Almighty. I can clearly say that I know God more now than I did a week ago.

Peggy did not want to die. She wanted to be a mother to her children and a wife to Larry. We did not want her to die as well. But God's Plan in this has been revealed to us. As mysterious and incomprehensible as it is, we need to trust that His Plan is perfect and glorious. Either you are on board with it or you are going to wear yourself out pushing away from His plan. My stubborn sister wanted to fight and show that she cleared the way for God to heal her. I believe yesterday God and Peggy were discussing things and God's plan was still on course for Peggy to go home at 9:30 am, just like He had planned it all along. I don't come close to understanding why, but I do know the Lord Almighty knows why. And when we find out why, we will be amazed!!!

Why do I know more about God? Over the last week I have swung from the hope side to the physical side. Was God capable of healing Peggy? Absolutely! But He choose not to. Were we all in the right by holding out hope to the end.???..... Of course, that is what Peggy wanted. Peggy knew she would be in a better place, but she was torn between the heavenly kingdom she knows and has studied..... and the earthly labors she felt responsible for. Her fight and her stubbornness was right on.....and inspirational! I am sooooo proud of her. Look closely at the verse below:

Philippians 1:21-24 "For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. But if I am to live on in the flesh, this will mean fruitful labor for me; and I do not know which to choose. But I am hard pressed from both directions, having the desire to depart and be with Christ, for that is very much better; yet to remain on in the flesh is more necessary for your sake."

As you can see, Peggy is in a better place, she is not suffering, she is in extreme joy. Lauri (Larry's sister) has been spending time with Larry and the kids. They are doing great and talking openly about mommy being in heaven. God inspired Lauri to say to the kids that Peggy is with her two other kids. Many may remember Peggy had two miscarriages. My sister loved them as well. Lexi heard what Lauri said, had a beaming look on her face and said "Mom always said she had 5 kids". This might give us a glimpse into the "why", not entirely but it is a beautiful glimpse.

Also the photo I put in here is a "transfer of the baton" that Peggy talked to me about in the ER on Monday. She said "you-all may need to carry the baton". It was an absolute passion of Peggy's to see her mother and sister have a deeper walk with the Lord. Through all of this, my Mom and Sandy have personally been drawn closer to Jesus. Peggy was able to see this. The photo to me depicts that "transfer of the baton".....transferring-the-baton of a deeper relationship with Christ for not only my Mom, but for me, for Larry, and for everyone else who has been touched by Peggy.

I want you to know this is not the end of the blog. There is a lot more to the story that I will post.

On a personal note... Larry and the kids are our focus now. Larry has a road ahead of him. But he is a strong man of God. I am so proud of him. He is an inspiration.

This illness has taken it's toll on Peggy's family financially. We are requesting that if you have it on your heart to send flowers...in lieu, please send gifts to a trust account set up for the Wolf Family:

Make Check Payable to:

Friends of Peggy Wolf Fund

Send to:
Santa Barbara Bank and Trust
400 E. Esplanade Drive, Suite 101
Oxnard, California 93030

God bless you all for being in the fight with Peggy. She was so empowered by all of you. I look forward to giving you added dimensions of Peggy and the story as the Lord leads.

Prayer Requests:

-Peggy...well she is complete and perfected....Praise GOD!!!

-Larry and the Kids need our focused support in prayer. They will be in the throws of grief, joy and heavy adjustments in their daily routine.

-Pray for protection of those who intend to assist the Wolf family, that their desire to help is realized.

-Pray for those touched by Peggy that maybe considering a closer relationship with Jesus. Pray that they step out in faith and yield their lives much like Peggy did.