Crazy Day Friday-11/14/09

Hi All,

Thankfully Saturday has not been as crazy. Hoping all of you are having a wonderful weekend! I love this time of year. When the season changes, the holidays are upon us and family and friend events to look forward too.

Wed. I asked for prayer for breathing. Thurs. I noticed I felt weaker and things were hard again but I did another resting day. However, Friday I just was weaker than I had ever known. I have to admit it made me cry. I get bluesy now and again with feeling so weak. But really I don't stay there. I get over it. Thank you Jesus! But it is there. So, we get in to see Dr. Kerr. And he thinks it sounds like I have fluid in my left lung area again. Maybe both sides. So we discuss getting another Plueral Effusion. The tap thing I had in the hospital that took out over a liter of fluid from the left side. Bummed that this was happening. Knew I needed to go forward with it. So first I need and xray to even make sure. After talking to the Dr. at the xray place things looked different. He was able to compare the xray to the one in Oct. that looked good. He said there really isn't enough fluid worth tapping. Only like 2 tablespoons. And the right side looks the same as before. They never drained the right at the hospital. So really the look about the same level. Not sure what that was about. I was just happy not to get the tap. Who needs all that poking into anyway?? Because of radiation, things are taking sooooo long to heal. Thank- you Jesus!!!!!

So we went home and I was able to rest for a long while in the afternoon. My Mom, Aunt Diane, and cousin Sue all came out later of a quick visit. They had planned earlier but the day had taken a different course, of course! I even felt I slept a wee bit better last night. This morning I did feel improvement in energy. Not much, but not nearly what I had the day before. Maybe kind of like Thurs. This could all be related to dose reducing. Some days you are just completely exhausted and it's random. No way to plan around that. So I don't know if I will go to Church in the AM. We will see what God's wants me to do. But, I will not be discouraged if it's another rest day. I will just be obedient. I just want Him to fix me up all better!! If I keep going against Him, well, what's the point of that.

He continues to be my hope. strength and life!! I am loving each day He gives me. Even when they don't feel so good. My family has been a source of strength and faith boosting for me!

Today started out good, but has gotten more difficult for breathing as the day has gone on. I really haven't done too much. Talking was hard to do even. I will keep an eye on it of course. Just keep coming against all these side effects from, the steroid, the radiation, possibly the chemos too, the disease itself...etc...Let Dr. Jesus direct it! Pray has He leads! I really do not know what it going on inside of me. I know He does completely! And best of all He can fix it painlessly. He is using me this way for His purposes and I feel honered! I hope I can do Him justice even in those weepy moments. I know He understands all that too. He even cried! We have such a compassionate God! I love Him sooooo Much!!!

Thank-you, Thank-you, Thank-you for all the prayers for the 5 of us! Our journeys are all unique. But they will all be powerful testimonies for Jesus and His Kingdom! I am confident of this!!

Love to all, Peggy