To Stent or not to Stent-11/3/09

Hello Again,

Oh the Lord is so good to me! We take time to pray and He really does direct our paths! Just trying to listen to His words and obey His voice and not my own. Hoping all of you are able to do the same in each and every decision He puts before you daily. He wants you to have the best life possible! A life that delights in Him!! I'm just so full of Love for my Jesus!!

So about the appointment with Dr. Rigberg yesterday. We made the appointment because we felt the Superior Vena Cava might be having more problems. The swelling in my face & rapid heart rate I guess are the two main reasons. Whatever the reason, the Lord had me make this appointment with Dr. Rigberg himself. Now I am thinking it had little to do with the stent at all. The Lord just knows how you to get where He wants you to be.

Dr. Rigberg was confused that I wanted this procedure now. He wondered if I changed my mind about being treated again. I said no, then how I felt real peace about being on all God now. He is Jewish but understands my Christian viewpoint...kind of. He really did not make a recommendation one way or another to do the stent. He is willing to call the Dr. to set up the procedure if I want to, but did not think it would bring the relief I might expect. He seemed to lean toward the fact that the swelling was more from the steroid. I thought that since I was on another steroid other than Prednisone that the swelling wasn't an issue. Not so! He said all these steroids did the same thing. That explains the muscle weakness too. You never know what complications could arise anyways from a surgical procedure. I have also noticed little scratches taking a long time to heal. Having an incision or two could be difficult now. Not really sure.

Dr. Rigberg has always been more of a facts on the table kind of guy. So we get info. that we can simply put before the Lord and pray about. We found out that the fluid drained at the hospital did show malignancy. Reports show I have tumors in the lungs and diaphram areas. Hospital reports show the lesions on the skull that he wanted to do radiation on. However, we have been praying and things have been happening. I am not being scanned right now. So in his mind as an oncologist...things have progressed. I having pains that disappear because a team of people prayed think things have regressed. Dr. Rigberg thought I would go home with oxygen. I haven't needed that at all. Stuff like that. All these areas of concern are prayer targets for you my Jesus Medical Team and I put you on it with all assurance that we can accomplish great things in Jesus mighty name!!

So last night I was awake for a long while and talking to God about it all. Should I get the stent, should I not. Just wasn't feeling I should anymore. Then I felt like he said "go!" What...go?? I said "Lord when you say "go" do you me go get the stent because that leaves me with no peace right now?" So I waited...then I sensed He said "go to Rigbergs". I got the idea from God awhile ago to see if Dr. Rigbergs office would flush my port once a month while I have it. It is a low maintainance item in my chest used to get a vein easy. Now that I am not being treated I can have it removed. But why unless it needs to be. Who know when I might need it. So I need to be responsible to keep track of the month going by. They were happy to have me come in once a month to do this. What a great way they can see the marvelous thing the Lord is going to do. I think God wants Dr. Rigberg on his side. He is a brilliant man and they are the hardest nut to crack sometimes.

At any rate, I'm not feeling like I need to stent right away anymore. Maybe all those tumors are lessening anyways. I can only rely on God to scan me now. Now might be a great time to share Dennis Stevenson vision God gave him from me around my hospital time 3 weeks ago. It was a simple outline of my body with the places where the tumors exist. And each time I urinated bits of the tumor washed out of me. And I kid you not...each morning since then I wake up with cloudy urine. Sorry if this is too gross for some. But I get excited. Only God knows what is going on inside me.

Hope this helps you guys feel up to date on whats up with us. I have a book I borrowed about prednisone and pulled it out today to read more about it since it is similar to the steroid I am taking. Great drug...hard side effects, slow taper is important. I just might need to be patient. I'm going to try working my muscles a little harder even though they feel so week. I'm happy to be a Mom and Wife. I can't just sit...it's not allowed. They would let me...don't get me wrong. But it might not be the best idea. I will need the Lords help to pace myself there.

Thanks for all the prayers and love. It has been truly overwhelming and received whole heartedly!! May the Lord richly bless every prayer right back at you!!

I love you all, Peggy

P.S. Physical need just noticed today. Slight pain in my left middle chest area and slight headache in the back of my head. Not sure if something is try to gain ground. Lets shoot it down! :)