Hi All,
It really has felt like a Rollercoaster these past two weeks that I have been doing Chemo. It's been a little hard going through all this again. I went to Church this past Sunday. One of the worship songs really touched me. I started to tear up. Then I start fighting with God about it all. Sitting in the front row with Larry, I just felt like might as well be crying on stage. But the Lord really wasn't bothered by my pride to act like I have it all together. He said it is alright to just be real. So I was weepy all day long it seemed. I'm not really sure how to explain it. Maybe God just wanted me to just get it all out of my system. I really did feel better the next day.
Chemo this past Monday was just as seamless as the last one. Only the two days following I really felt very tired. More tired than I remember. But, maybe it's just that I don't remember. Some stuff is just easier forgotten. Other than that, all seems to be going well.
I had a parent/teacher conference with Trinity's teacher Mrs. Tucker this week. Nothing out of the ordinary just the regular 2nd trimester check-in with the teacher. We talked and she had lots of great things to say about Trin's progress. She is doing great. I have been open with all the kids teachers about what is going on with me in case stuff comes up with the kids in the classroom. So we talked about how all this seems to be effecting her. She only had one thing that stood out to her months back. For a few days she came in real quiet and to herself. She is usually more energetic. Then one morning following her quiet days she came in first thing and raised her arms in the air and shouted "Hooray My Mom's Not Going to Die!" And then she went back to her normal self after that. We are thinking it must have been the time around the Surgery back in November.
It's hard to know how the kids are digesting all this serious stuff. I just keep putting them in God's capable hands. He knows what He is doing. I trust Him!! I know it is helping me to appreciate each and everyone one of these special people God has allowed me time with. Larry, Lexie, Trinity and Joshua are incredible people. Not to mention so many others so very close too. I am such a blessed person! I guess I could go on and on but I risk getting really boring. So I will sign off here.
Lots of love!! Thanks for all the great prayers!!
Peggy
Peggy Wolf
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Peggy, You are amazing! Your ability to communicate your journey is incredible. I feel like I am sitting right there as you're telling it. I wish I were, so I could be hugging you too! God is giving you awesome strength and wisdom - It is ok to be frustrated, because you know no matter what your feelings are, God is always with you. Stay strong, my friend, and remain peaceful - God is your strength. He is looking out for your loved ones too - you can see it in Larry and the kids! I keep you all close to my heart and in my prayers! See you soon! Love, Ann
Sweet Peggy, my heart has been on you all day today. So I have prayed for you a lot today. I love how you said "the Lord wasn't bothered by my pride to act like I have it all together. He said it was alright to just be real". AMEN!! We are called to trust in Him, to lean on Him, to confide in Him, to seek Him, and to run to Him. Our trials and sufferings are our opportunities to put what we know to the test. I don't believe that He expects us to get it perfectly right every time and every day. We are hear to bring Glory to Him! You have faith in God, you do trust in Him, you do confide in Him, and you do run to Him. It is for those reasons that He is gracious in knowing that we do cry. Even Jesus cried (John 11:35). Did it mean that He didn't have it together? No, it meant that He felt the emotion of the pain in situations. As I sat behind you and we hugged as you cried I thought "Lord, she feels you, she knows you, but it just stinks...and that's okay right now". You are such an amazing woman of God. I am blessed to know you and I pray that in the name, the most powerful name, of JESUS you be healed!! I pray for complete protection over you and the family, for our father to pour abundandt blessings on your family, for the kids to feel as normal as possible in the midst of this, for the kids to be shining lights as to the work He is doing in their lives through this, for Pastor Larry to be filled with the Lord's strength, and for the fruits of the spirit to be showered over all of you!
I'll talk to you soon!
Love,
Julie
Hi Peggy,
I just wanted to say that you looked so beautiful in Church today. You know what? We laugh when something is funny, we get upset when something is bothering us, and we cry when something is hurting us...that is part of who we are. The LORD loves us for that. You are doing wonderfully! We are praying for you. Love You!
Lisa Jensen
Peggy;
When I read the first paragraph of your March 14th blog it spoke pretty loudly to me that the Holy Spirit was and is all over you. I read the rest and it is evident to me that He is all over your family. What love our Father has for us that He pours out His Spirit on us.
He can not resist yours and Larry's humility either and you know what that means...GRACE. Not to endure but to overcome.
Our arms are lifted high and we are screaming praises to our Father as we take this ride with you
God You are beyond description, beautiful in all ways and true to Your word. We Love You!
We Love you all
Patrick and Mary Carey
Was thinking about you and I hope you are having a good day. But either way, smile, look at those precious little ones around you and go love all over them! Ok and the big one too! :)
OK, I prayed opened my bible and this is what God gave me, maybe it means something to you maybe it doesn't but here it is....Jeremiah 46:27&28.....these are the parts I had highlighted already, "But do not fear, No one shall make him afraid. Do not fear, For I am with you".
Take care peggy!
Love,
Amy S.
Such a brave, strong lady. I know you don't feel brave and you don't feel strong. But these qualities just shine brightly in your eyes when I see you with your little ones and your husband.
Life doesn't always seem fair, but know that God is in control. When life seems out of control, just let it go. Cry when you need to, and cling to your babies when you need to. One day you will understand it all. Until then all you can do is make the most of each and every moment.
In a way you are amazingly blessed! You have the opportunity to feel the love much more intimately than the rest of us. I have wasted so much time when I could have been building up the family of God. But you are making your time count in much more important ways than the rest of us can imagine.
Thank you so much my dear for being such a shining example. Go ahead and cry, just remember that the laughs have to outnumber the tears.
With much love,
Darla P.
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