Hi All, (And a special Happy Birthday to Dad Wolf!!!)
It was sure nice to have a week off of all the chemo and nuepogen shots. It made going in today kind of hard. But, during the time off our Church had it's annual Women's Retreat-Beautiful One! It was a great time. God is always on the move doing amazing things and this weekend was no exception.
I had a kind of down feeling come over me after I returned. Maybe it was the after camp "off the mountain top experience". Maybe it's the fact that my cycle is trying to start (which I'm thankful for after the chemo a year ago it nixed all my estrogen-thankful for all that is normal still). Maybe it's the finances. Maybe it's the fact that I had more chemo to face. Maybe it's just everything combined. I'm not sure. I know "I'm not suppose to feel this way" as a Christian. I also know that when I am weak He is strong. So why deny Him the opportunity. I guess I'm saying this here so you all can know how to pray more specifically.
The chemo this morning is getting more challenging to get into my veins. They are getting pretty scarred up from so much use. Just keep praying I will not need a port put in. In some ways they are easier but they have plenty of down sides too. My white cells continue to hold up with the help of the neupogen. Lately my red cells are going down from the starting 14 to 10.8 after the last round of treatments. At 10 they need to give me so other drug called procrit to help with that. Today my red cells were 11.3. So they are hanging in there. Sorry if this is all boring info. Just giving you all some more prayer points.
We are all continuing to get help from friends and family helping in so many ways. We appreciate it all from the meals to the childcare to the help with other household chores and on and on....Thank you all and may God Bless You back 10 times as much!!!
In Kids Church this Sunday the scripture to memorize was fitting...With God all things are possible! Matt. 19:26 Boy did I ever need to hear that one again!!
Love to all, Peggy
Peggy Wolf
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Hey there Peggy.
Sounds like you are human and not a superhuman, which is super okay. There is not a person on this planet that wouldn't be down with all you are facing. The only difference is, there is a light at the end of the tunnel for us. And that light is Jesus.
Whatever is happening now, no matter how wrong...is right. Because He is in control. Doesn't mean you have to feel happy about it, just calm. Just still. Keep on taking care of your family, that is your job.
Let Larry take care of you because that gives him a bit of control over something that no one can control. Let your kids make you pictures because that is their help.
Let God take care of the big picture and even though it is hard, know that the ending has been planned from the beginning. Whether you will pull through and become an inspiration for other young mothers to come, or whether you will get to move on into Glory leaving a legacy of memories and love and strength is not your call. Your call is to listen and to persevere.
When you are down take a ride to the beach. In Oxnard we are so blessed to be able to view God's hand controlling something as powerful as the ocean, yet so calming and healing.
I love you Peggy. I love your smiles and your control. I love your new hair styles your hugs.
Let the Lord be your strength this week.
Love,
Darla
HI There Peggy,
You are a such beautiful and special woman and a wonderful mother. You inspire me to have a better attitude about things going on in my life ... i see you almost every sunday with a huge smile on your face despite all you are going through. Things going on in my life seem so insignificant when I think of you and yours.
Like my mom said, the Lord is in control, but that doesn't mean what you are going through isn't painful and hard ... I am sure that it is very tiresome and difficult ... you don't always have to feel good about it, just confident that God has a perfect plan for you!
I pray this next week is a little easier for you and for total healing!
Love You,
KIM!:)
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